I am a single mother of 2 amazing boys. A 14 and 12 year old. They are truly a gift! Since my mother passed away (from neglect) on Christmas day of 03 at the age of 44. Our lives has never been the same. She was my everything. We lived together and she watched over my children while I worked and made sure they were fed and bathed everyday before I came home. I was physically and emotionally lost with out here and still am. Since then, I lost my job, We were kicked out of that home because my name was not on the lease. We went from Home to home and shelter to shelter. I dont regret a day of it. My children and I are extremely close and I believe it is due to the hard times we all brought to light together. My babies dont "want" much. They know the value of a dollar and they appreciate everything I am "able" to give. I honestly get chills and emotional when I speak of them.
It's been a tough life. In 07 I was able to get a great job that paid more than I was ever paid before. For about 9 months, Everything seemed to be ok until my children we getting into fights at school, I was being stalked by their father ( whom never was involved in their lives) so at that point, my sister was living in Florida and was telling me how much better it was over there and the schools were great! I was sold. I packed up what little I had and said goodbye to the city Ive lived in my whole life! I was there for about 7 months and could not find work anywhere! One day someone told me that I can apply for Unemployment due to the fact that I had to leave my job due to Domestic Violence and I have a history of it to back me up, so I did. It took a long time before I was approved but I was in tears when I received that letter. My babies n I moved to the best house we ever lived in. They went to a great school, played outside with friends and we made sure we had Movie night ever Saturday. Life was Amazing, Then I started feeling sicker and sicker. Found out that I had a Kidney infection and I needed surgery. From there, things went bad. I couldnt get up and do anything so I had to order out for the kids almost everyday. My money went fast. Then, Unemployment held my benefits due to a "voting issue" in the state. I had NO money for a month. When they "released" the benefits, I didn't get what was held to i had to pay everything I can with what they gave me from then on. I was late on July's rent and it kept going from there. Paid July's rent in August, August's rent in September, September's rent in October.
Now October, While I am again recovering from yet another surgery, (Oopherectomy) my money goes more and more. A few weeks later, My benefits are over and there is no extension for me. So now, I am here, typing away my pathetic story to strangers that might not even read this far or at all. I believe in good people. I help when I can and even when I can't. I believe I am a good person. I know my children are great people. I just hope there are good people out there that won't judge me and understand how it is to be in a situation that you tried so hard to never see again. I dont want to lose our home. We are finally happy! Every day I spend hours and hours looking for work. My car is from 1995. She barely makes it around my town. I need help and I finally put my pride aside to ask for it. Please. If there is any information you may have, I'd appreciate it! Please no info on foodstamp and Welfare. I am already aware of those programs. I hope to hear from someone soon. Even if it's just for moral support. God bless you all and I wish you a Merry Christmas!
